A fangirl who dreams of having a very romantic love story someday. A girl who always ends up wondering why on Earth she's the way she is. A girl who is deeply, hopelessly and desperately inlove with Micky. A girl who is always spending her time, alone.She's not a loser but she always fail.
I lost half of my sanity yesterday and I decided to make movie patches from PS. I mentioned that my PS is gone right? Well, it was and now, it isn't anymore. I went to I.T center to get the best photoshop. Unfortunately, they only have cs3 and I was expecting for something better. Since I was so eager to make one, I took it.
I spent hours doing this one. I patiently waited for the video to load at YouTube. Then, I paused it every time they make a movement. Patience was my main word yesterday. I started doing this at around 5 pm and finished it at around..past 1 am. Here it is.. x_x
I'm not bragging about my so called gfx. I put so many effort in this. My hands and arms were in pain. Plus, my back and my eyes. To be honest, I am disappointed with this. Quite disappointed. Why? Because this isn't what I was expecting. Of course, we expect for something better. But you know, it's kinda..impossible for me.
I'm trying to figure out why a certain thing couldn't come as expected. Unless, you recheck everything and do the same procedure again and again. Sometimes, it takes us a while to complete it and of course, multiple tries. And after those hard work, consecutive sleepless nights, we still don't get all the credits. And even sometimes, we get those negative comments and find ourselves wondering what we did wrong. What's lacking. Though we always aim for the perfect thing, we can never have it. Nobody is perfect but, nothing is impossible. Yet, things are impossible for me. ((=
If I say I'm a failure, I would be a sucker. I'm not saying I'm close to perfection or something..I'm just trying to make myself believe that I'm not. It might sound ridiculous but I'm dead serious about it. Atleast I'm trying. I don't want to make my life miserable and end those wonderful things that I have and those things that are waiting ahead for me. I don't know what they are but I'm pretty sure that there are alot.
I don't want to lay down all those mistakes and my failures. That would mean nothing. (:
I spent hours doing this one. I patiently waited for the video to load at YouTube. Then, I paused it every time they make a movement. Patience was my main word yesterday. I started doing this at around 5 pm and finished it at around..past 1 am. Here it is.. x_x
I'm not bragging about my so called gfx. I put so many effort in this. My hands and arms were in pain. Plus, my back and my eyes. To be honest, I am disappointed with this. Quite disappointed. Why? Because this isn't what I was expecting. Of course, we expect for something better. But you know, it's kinda..impossible for me.
I'm trying to figure out why a certain thing couldn't come as expected. Unless, you recheck everything and do the same procedure again and again. Sometimes, it takes us a while to complete it and of course, multiple tries. And after those hard work, consecutive sleepless nights, we still don't get all the credits. And even sometimes, we get those negative comments and find ourselves wondering what we did wrong. What's lacking. Though we always aim for the perfect thing, we can never have it. Nobody is perfect but, nothing is impossible. Yet, things are impossible for me. ((=
If I say I'm a failure, I would be a sucker. I'm not saying I'm close to perfection or something..I'm just trying to make myself believe that I'm not. It might sound ridiculous but I'm dead serious about it. Atleast I'm trying. I don't want to make my life miserable and end those wonderful things that I have and those things that are waiting ahead for me. I don't know what they are but I'm pretty sure that there are alot.
I don't want to lay down all those mistakes and my failures. That would mean nothing. (:
Labels: blahblah, Failure, insanity, randomness
Unlike any other girls, I am different in my own unique way. So don't even dare comparing me with them. 
You'll probably think it's weird. Well, there's nothing I can do about it, right? 
I wanna befriends with people my class than to those people who are just wasting their time pretending someone they are not! 
Whatever. I'm so not gonna talk about it. 
*What?! That's why we call it, WISH right?!
Aila